a gradual remembering

My musings on art, music and being alive

🌟Circuit Church @ The Nook🌟

A couple of friends and I went to check out a music event in Orlando a few weeks ago. Circuit Church is a record label that throws live outdoor shows monthly at The Nook on Robinson. Local musicians perform all varieties of electronic music. Most notable from this last show was the music of Birdlady.

Seeing this music during a sunny evening outdoors is something expected considering the noise and experimental nature of this genre. The mood and atmosphere it created was a surprisingly calming one. I totally zoned-out during Birdlady’s set as I watched the wind whip through the overhanging trees above. It was a seemingly suited soundtrack for a galactic collision or the merging of supermassive black holes, any sort of cataclysmic planetary event caught in slow-motion. This was it, this was the soundtrack.

Take a listen to Birdlady using the link below.

This must be the place..

The Nook itself is such a cool bar/hangout spot that I’m kinda sad I didn’t discover it until so recently. The owners are super friendly and welcoming, not only do they support local artists and musicians by providing a space for them to share their art but they host a ton of events during the year as well as reoccurring movie and vinyl nights. It’s not everyday you find a place like The Nook that really fosters creativity within the community. I can’t wait to spend more time in this place💜

Check out The Nook:

Circuit Church:

A finished old(ish) painting?

I finally finished up this painting I began back at the end of August. It started as a quick sketch but once I started painting it no matter how much I tried replicating the spirit of the drawing I couldn’t get it right. It really frustrated me during my struggle to “will” it into existence. Is she wearing a crown? Wizard’s hat or a dunce cap? The joke was on me. I gave up and left this painting sitting in my studio for close to a year until just the other day.

As I looked at this paining over the past month it seemed like it wasn’t as far off as I had initially thought. I guess when I started the painting before, I wanted it to be something that it really wasn’t ready to be at the time.

The other day I started adding in some dark areas to the painting. Before that it was more of a light colored tropical portrait that never was. I’ve experienced so much since it’s first stages of creation and I see glimpses of that person who started the painting but it feels different now. I feel different now.

This is a painting of the fool embarking on a journey, soon to be shrouded in darkness. Not knowing what will come next or what the lesson will be. The carefree yet cowardice of the fool, getting caught up in the details instead of stepping back and getting a glimpse of the bigger picture.

Drifter’s Sympathy Podcast

This past month I started to delve back into Emil Amos’ Drifter’s Sympathy podcast. He just released some new episodes and I figured I would start back from the very beginning. I discovered Emil while listening to The Duncan Trussell Family Hour back in 2016. I figured if Duncan’s such a weirdo and they grew up together, as good friends Emil must be just as interesting of a person.

Being a music lover, I fell in love with the podcast immediately. In a way it reminded of listening to Little Steven’s Underground Garage when I was a kid, it used to play on the rock station Sunday nights when I was in high school. I would sit in my room with all my backlight posters glowing, soaking up every minute of the music and stories. I could always count on terrific music recommendations way before the internet was so accessible. For that, I’m forever grateful. Anyways, back to Drifter’s Sympathy

The podcast delves into the idea of the Outsider or Loner archetype. How it emerged throughout history in music and movies, how we came to admire and relate to the myth ourselves. I enjoy the format of the podcast, not only because it highlights lesser known tracks by some often over-looked artists, but also how Emil’s own personal tales are woven effortlessly throughout the episodes.

Each episode has its own theme and as he chronicles music history it parallels his own experiences. I picture it almost as a fireside storytelling session. Unusual interactions and strange states of mind, what it was like growing up in the 90’s set to a killer soundtrack.

There are some seriously hilarious anecdotes he shares. Especially early on in the the podcast during the “Ron Trilogy”, a few episodes where he discusses his teenage guru Ron, an older gay Deadhead.

My favorite episode so far is probably Episode 19: Insidious Mind Control. I laughed myself to tears listening to these old prank call recordings from Emil and Duncan as they sow dissent amongst the general population of their small college town.

See the link below to check it out.

Nicolas Cage Proclaims ‘I Am a Goth’ Ahead of Playing Dracula, Says His Pet Crow Insults Him

Nicolas Cage once played a man who is convinced he is a vampire (1989’s “Vampire’s Kiss”), but he’s about to go full bloodsucker as Dracula in …

Nicolas Cage Proclaims ‘I Am a Goth’ Ahead of Playing Dracula, Says His Pet Crow Insults Him

“Listen to them, children of the night. What music they make…”

Last night we took a walk down to the river near our house. Along the way there is an abandoned building that used to be a Walgreen’s years ago. It was around 8:15, perfect timing really. As we passed by, I heard the familiar sound of excited bats chirping. I looked up towards the building and at that precise moment a swarm of bats began to take flight, emerging out of a small gap between the roof and shingles. There were so many, much more than I would have imagined. It was enchanting, the magic in the ordinary.

P.S. Who is the best Vampire?

Masayoshi Takanaka meets Santana💫

I recently discovered the music of Masayoshi Takanaka while browsing on YouTube. I wasn’t in the best mood so I played Brasilian Skies solely based on the cover art. This man looked like he was having the time of his life on a beach somewhere. The music was happy, ecstatic and upbeat. Then I realized something, you cannot feel sad and listen to Takanaka’s music at the same time, it’s just impossible. What a revelation..

More great album art from Takanaka’s All of Me – 1979

As I went further down the rabbit hole, I found out that Takanaka has an extensive discography ranging from the early 1970’s up until just a few years ago. After about a month solid of listening to these albums with no end in site, I came across the best video yet, the one that would totally blow my mind – Takanaka performing “Ready to Fly” w/Santana live in Japan. I’ve always been a big Santana fan but I had no idea they ever performed together. (My favorite Santana is of course the infamous Woodstock performance of Soul Sacrifice”, but that’s a story for another time)

So in August of 1981 Santana did a brief tour of Japan with Takanaka called The Summer Live Super Session. This legendary performance at Yokohama Stadium has it all: two heavy hitting guitar masters, city pop synths and an OUT OF CONTROL percussion section driving it all home…it doesn’t get much better than this.


I’m getting back into the swing of things over here. Is it ever fun coming home from vacation?🤔 We had a great time exploring Savannah over the weekend with friends. Good times with good people and good art! The weather was perfect and we were able to go to some of the events happening around town. Even got a chance to check out the Graveface block party and buy some art from my local favs! Did I mention my favorite bar there is the American Legion? For real, it is the best.

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Panhandle Slim

It’s Saturday🤩

Happy New Moon! I started reading this book a couple months back and I’m just about to finish it up. Lisa Olivera offers fascinating insights on the stories we tell ourselves. Our personal narratives can sometimes be detrimental for our growth and keep us stuck in negative mindsets. Many of them are so deep rooted we aren’t fully conscious of them and we must identify these stories first in order to reframe them. “When we go through the journey of understanding and reframing our stories we gift ourselves the possibility of remembering who we truly are,” she explains. Practices for self-acceptance are woven throughout the book and the powerful idea that we are enough, just the way we are right now. One of the great take aways was the idea of acceptance vs. resistance. I was familiar with the buddhist concept, “pain x resistance = suffering” but it was when the author shared the psychologist Carl Roger’s quote that it really hit for me, “The curious paradox is that when I accept myself just as I am, then I can change.” By accepting instead of fighting we can begin focusing that energy towards change, we can change our story. What a possibility!💫

Art, Kimchi Fries, Nicholas Cage??🤔✨🍟

We had a fun time at the art show Saturday night! Nick also made delicious kimchi fries which were AMAZING. A couple days later I got sick so I’ve been dealing with that. Haven’t got much done except watching a lot of TV. For example, I’m currently watching a 3 hour+ YouTube documentary on Nicholas Cage, glad someone is finally giving the attention and appreciation the man deserves, hopefully he can heal my illness, see link below¯\_(ツ)_/¯

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